Started with a small nomination of selected people but due to some trainings, Harvey got to go and replace with Yusheng and Gabriel. The Bangra dance competition that just taken place yesterdae, 30th october really brings a great memories to all. Finally, i will be able to rest while at home instead of burning songs and doing up the costumes…la la la
Come Friday, The suspense is super near as i myself am eager as to how things will turn out to be.
Will the crowds cheer, Will we be able to at least clinch second Place out of 3? Will i be able to dance as this character successfully? Super scared man haha
The results…shall announce later
So, Foong and Aizat were in the bunk watching me transforming wakaka. Thank you Foong for helping out in holding the costumes and. Then our favourite guy enter, Mister Wong haha and he was smiling cheekily from behind and ended up teasing Foong and his electronic gadgets.
Gabriel and Yu sheng plus Liang enters. my fellow frens and they were totally unexpected of what they was seeing. They eagerly put their punjabi coat on and seem super excited about the dance later as well. Glad they are happy with what im presenting myself wakakaa. The moment we ge tdown to stand back stage, all eyes were on us and wow the numbe rof supports we receive was super alot and it totally liven my spirit and making me more confident hahha.
We went on third to perform and baam, The crowds cheer and claps and it went superb. Ended it as plan. Gabriel and Yu sheng surprisingly dance more than i expected and wow…Simply superb. Thank you so much guys.
The winners are being announce by Mister Sekhar who non-stop praising us…Goes to us!!
Champions and we receive this big hampers filled with yummy crackers,muruku and sparkling juice. Beautiful. My section mates were all there during performing to give us the support and that makes my night even more…
A Night to remember… Thank you all..You guys are the best !!!
To all dudes who just cant take your eyes off, especially Koh, Soh, Ayid, Lincoln, Mister Tan, Eck, Sufrie,Stuart and all the other dudes…hahaha well only one night you get to see ‘her’ and no more wakakkakaa
Good morning guys… Want to hear what song i used…Listen below for the movie songs…
Posted in Confessions on AM00000020000005131 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Had a good night sleep yesterday. Even when i set my alarm to wake me at odd hours still i doze off and only wake 5 minutes before i have to really wake up and shower for my work. Not thinking of cutting my hair this time since its super short and can endure haha. Was really occupied with alot of stuff over the weekends with dance items and make-ups…That i have yet to finalised all the details.
Nazirah described me as a perfectionist..hmmm really??? Well you are also haha. We fork out our money and surely we wants the best for us so its not wrong to go for the exact details that we one afterall…Its our money
Was walking to work just now and i saw this good-looking guy who just cant stop smiling to himself. I became shock. Wait dont label me gay aite just because i call him good looking. We have eyes and surely we can tell who’s handsome,pretty and such…Anyways confidence will even turn snow white step mother into a princess. When you feel good- you will make others feel good.
Back to his story, he was smiling at a cat and in my heart i was like”are you mad to smile to a cat…you so happy ar” the best part after that i was smiling a that cat also haha unknowingly. Strange right and i end up calling myself crazy..I think some cats really knows how to hypnotize you boo hoo..karma hahaa Sorry guy to have call you mad…i also mad..hahha
Still at my workplace…Need to work on the eye-shadows later and movie screening at midnight..Chucky and step-up…Good old movies are sometimes better than the modern ones which have no storyline.
Remind me to bring mann for yusri and bhootnath for zulkhairi.
I learn how to burn songs yesterday and im super proud of it because finally i can do it haha.. Needto re-edit this song that im using for this coming friday performance….Talking to Nazirah and i didnt bring my charger today..oh no..anyone has a samsung charger….
Posted in Confessions on AM00000050000004631 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Going to tekka shortly with mum to get some dance item that is theme all red. Wow haha. Harvey and Suhaimi will be going for their ord training and will not be there for the dance.
Whats on my mind now…Glitters and bangles hahaa. Took a pic just now and enjoy this song guys. This month i really like going to Tekka non-stop hahah.
Its Sunday and tmrw is standby in my workplace.
Nothing much to say except by body is aching after gym session yesterday..Guess the muscles are expanding haha. Ok guys…
Posted in Confessions on AM00000090000002831 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Yesterday gym session in my workplace is super enduring to the max because my new gym coach, mr chia has decided to increase my weight loads super fast for the first session. I want him to be my coach because he really does push me alot which i need. In my workplace, if you are not push, the couch, the phone, the phone and the bed will be pulling you instead.
The push and pull teory of Kaeral Armaan Hafeez haha.
There will be a major dance performance to be perform at my workplace next week in conjunction with deepavali hols. Im pull to be in by Harven and stuart and our magnificent Ecknaath bala. Harven is away next week for some trainign hence his replaced by these duo who will be the exact prince for the dance.
Aizat and emile , i will force you in somehow dude haha. This dance will never be like any other because ehem ehem surprise .. Just for fun sake. Its been a while since i last dance and that too in this kind of moves, hope i will perform up to their expectations. Help me guys haha.
Armaan Hafeez will be pack with major activities this end of year plus the last 2 months in my camp before i start a whole new life…actually the same life i had just better this time because i know what i want and what i can get with what i have.
My dance will be a past time where i will live in a world where every move i choreograph in that dance or i move according to how the choreographer wants me to dance. I want something more interesting to my life. Im not going to be the typical person who follows the normal norm and what their parents wants. There are some that i can follow and some i cannot.
To have a car, be a government worker, save money and get married. This are the norms. I will have this but i will have it differently. Life is short. I will not be another one who just work to save money and work till ones die. The life that we are given, we have to give justice to it. We have to live life to the fullest. Take a look at Oprah, Tyra, Rachel Ray, Barrack obama, Mother theresa, princess diana and many other famous people. They do what they are made to do but with a twist. Bringing life to what they did.
Ultimately it is our happiness that matters. Not our best friends, not our family but ours. They have live their lives. Now its our turn guys.
Right now im filling my time with dance as a leisure, doing bridals gift because i love creating things, and just being myself for the rest of the days…
Posted in Confessions on AM00000080000003631 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Today i read a book. In that page i cant think of anything else except for the content that is so believable and hurtful. I just cant hold up any more emotions about the story and i admit it is really hurting to be made into a scapegoat for the lust of others. May no one have this kind of partners…. Read it below…
” Never have i thought that she could be so mesmerizing at the very first look. Her smiles, her gentle voice that gives me nothing but eagerness to always chat with her. I fall in love on day one.
Day and night that follows, my heart just couldnt stopped thinking about her. Her words, her beauty just etched firmly in my heart. Why do i feel this way? Why? I dont know and i dont hold the answer. Will she like me? Will she? 4 days since the first meeting, she has made me realize how i badly wants to be a part of her. To be her companion, her soul mate, her everything.
People say to be in a relationship, you need to build a strong mutual foundation but mine only last for a day and im afraid i cannot hold any longer. I pick up the phone and dial. ” hey, what you doing… Oh in the train, i see…Look i have something to admit. Since the very first meeting i like you alot. I enjoy my time, enjoy chatting with you, enjoy knowing someone like you. We are new but i believe in what im doing and i know what i want. I want you……. Will you be my gf…..” she said yes and was eager about it. ” sure! im also liking you alot. You made me sleepless for nights. Yes and i will promise to look after you heart each and every single minute…” as she says….
Little did i know it was all a lie.
She went on a holiday and that number of days she’s not here, i waited and waited for the day she will be back. I find myself rolling tears unnecessary and people find me crazy but i cant answer anything because i was so madly in love with her that i just want her safely back. She return on Monday night and i felt a relieved reading her messages…..
We did went on trips together to some of the most beautiful places ever. We took pictures, chatted and were happy. Each day we will talk on the phone for hours till either one of us will feel sleepy. She works the evening shift and will only be back after midnight and during the day she’s sleeping to cover for her tiredness during the evening. Hence our conversation is always at night…..
My sacrifices for her was too many that now it became a hurtful memories. I lost my sleep just to talk to her at night where she can sleep in the morning whereas i resume my work. I even stayed up till sunset waiting for her to finish her shower and all her housework just to end up hearing her saying ” hey im sorry but we cant talk today” what!!! at 6.30 you say that, atleast say that at 1 am so i can rest if you jolly well knows you cant talk to me. You know you wont even pick up the call when you sleep int he morning.
One day i decided to play a joke into saying something so serious that it seems like a breaking up but no it was nothing and simply meant as a joke. She went berserk and mad and hang up the phone. I was lost. I was so afraid of losing her. She was never like that. Why cant she accept it as a joke. Why? I shed tears and tears after tears. I thought i lost her.
She messages me at 3am ” i think we should stop meeting up with each other that often. For phone chat, we will only chat once every 3 days. If you cannot accept this offer, we are over…” i was too afraid of losing her that i said yes…. The nights that i have to wait for the third day kills me because i cant even hear her voice. I miss her and i she still have to do this to me… why???? Doesnt she misses me as much as i miss her? We dont even meet that often. We only meet once every week since the first day..so what now, once a month meet up.
Valentine’s day is next week. Our 2 month anniversary also. The first month, we celebrated and i sang for her a song i compose myself. Out of the sleepless nights im having. Just for her. She likes it and cried as well. Are those tears real? Or just that im the first guy who really show concern to her. This happens before the day i have that prank joke on her. After that all change.
She wasnt loving, she wasnt caring and she wasnt someone i knew anymore. She no longer likes our night talks. She does say that for Valentines day she is going to find me surprises from various places just for me. I thought maybe she does love me and feels sorry for abandoning each day for her ‘ 3 day once chat rule’.
Valentines day was spent beautifully but i notice something about her…She kept looking at muscular guys at the beach. Each and every single guy..Whats wrong with her??? I know we are given desires but at least do respect that your boyfriend is just next to you. I can also look at other girls but will you like it. I let the matter rest and because i love her and sincerely love her, i do not want to mess up any uninviting trouble since V’day is spent beautifully.
1 7 February, i was online. She made us a website with these password. I decided to used these password to open her account. I know its mean but i just need to know her outside activities because we only talk once every three days. The sms-es i sent, she will only reply after 3 to 5 hours later. That was when i saw what i wish i never see in her email….. It was between her and guys.
” Hey, this is my number and address. Im free every morning. My off days on these days. Do you love a good sucking?” The guy reply ” This is my number, looking forward to meet you” dated 12 January.
” I know a good sucking location” The guy reply ” I will be there at the park. Im all horny now” she replied ” Sure im free in the afternoon for you. You were good the other time”
I couldnt bear to read anymore of her messages. That minute she breaks my trust and love. She cheat on me all this while. Her smile, her sweet voice all were just a fake. I cried and my emotions went furious. I cannot tolerate anybody cheating on me. No wonder she ask for the 3 day rule so she can meet other guys. Her finding my V’day present all over different places wa actually meeting up with different guys to give them satisfaction when her gifts wasnt that great after all. Why ? Why must you do this if you have never love me in the first place.
I confronted her that night. I call our relationship off and she cannot deny what i just mention because she’s super guilty that i can find out her true colours. Its over. The next day i cried at work and being a guy, i just couldn’t care because i have emotions too. I am that guy who fall in love seriously. I just cannot take it when she did that. She cheat on me. I found out that the hours she spent showering each night is idling at male in various sexual position on her psp. Her emails, her accounts were all filled with her getting guys to come to her resident for free services by her. Dated even before i met her, during our relationship even. At least now i know her true colours.
The best part i can actually call her to patch up because i just cannot forget her. She confessed…” she cannot let go of her sexual desires for all guys”
That was the minute i hang up the phone. That was the minute where i came to realise that Unfaithfulness exist in the real world.
Since then, i hardly can trust anyone of similar traits like her. Sadly majority of the people i know are like her and i just hate them. I hate msyelf for loving her. To think i sacrifice my time, my passion, my sleep, myself just for her…
You guys tell me is it worth it to call such girls…Girls or Animal….
I am single waiting for the time when i will be bring to someone who is faithful…Am till then i will be myself and by myself with all these memories making me stronger yet hating all these kind of people. How can i totally forget the painful memories she gave me at this age. I was a good guy to her yet she hurts me the most. Dont blame me if i just finds it hard to trust anyone new….Thanks to you and if i see you outside, please pray you dont ever walk beside me because i despise YOU!!!
Posted in Confessions on AM00000050000004731 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Just came back from geylang for the final touch of my own book design. Bought the cloth from geylang, peacock feathers from tekka and book courtesy of my buddy, felix and nazri. i admit im the kind of person when looking for things, i will even go to one corner of Singapore for something so small like the exact beads i want. Perfectionist…nah just want the best for myself. It started with a sketch and i decide to really do it up. Am pretty proud of what i did. Take a look.
My own personal book where i will paste beautiful memories and things…
On another note, was super tiring after yesterday duty. My hours of rest are everywhere and it really hurts my eye alot. Thank god its over. Next week is november yahoo.
Yesterday night me and my section we dance at the carpark area and harven blast off the bangras track. Me, Yu sheng, , Jonathan, Emile and stuart plus harven, we shake ourselves till all end up in sweats. haha Gabriel shake his head to the beats. It was happy happy night….. Well dude, both of you are in the dance… hahahah
Thats all for now dears…. Gonna stare at my book and admire it hahaha. Soemtime when i do something which i think is nice, im just too afraid to even touch it hahaha
Posted in Confessions on AM000000100000000431 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Strange hei na the title of my entry but thats what it is. Its October now and without me realizing i have been sent beautiful angels into my life. Among them is nazirah whom without me knowing its been six months since i know her. She is family now. Someone very close to me.
Thank you for coming my dear friend. No matter what barrier there is…Bambi and bimbo will still be tanam at the end of the day…just joking wakakaka
Been to tekka bazaar yesterday and there is this bangla who mistook me for his gay bf from some club street name kyle. But i like the name still so i dont mind using it as my nick name hahaha…sorry dude to disappoint you. in camp today and there was a lot on my mind about after this year. Later i shall continue thinking about it. Tmrw am delivering my customer bouquet to nazirah… Roses with lots of baby’s breath hahaa
Reminiscence of my past sometimes makes me wonder how it all began…its worth to think about since it really teaches me alot of things..There is happy hour for deepavali occasion next week….oh no!!!!!!
The clones are really not getting my attention at all. well maybe we are just not fated anymore. Hmm Nazirah will be attending a wedding soon..hah cant wait to accompany her to start her shopping journey…ye lah ms aliya natasha
I think a good night sleep really helps in your mood the next morning. Be it with your frens or family.
Ok thats all for now…
and im looking forward to buy high school musical 3. Full of friendship.
Posted in Confessions on AM000000110000005231 20, 2006 by hafeez18
Its been a long time since i last feel like this and still feeling this. Sorry my dear readers for not updating for a number of days ago. Was very unwell trust me. The number of uncomfort days i been thru till i got an mc really suck haha. Let me just brief through all the missing in actions detail….
I have watch Dil bole hadippa and kambaht ishq thnaks to my fever that i got nothing better to do than to watch this online. Its good movie both of this but i prefer shahid and rani better. The movie is superb and all the songs was what me and Harven enjoy always…punjabi true style hahah. Sorry Nazirah cannot watch with you since my sick days are the ones to blame …Dont worry will make up to you for our next excursion trip hahah
Talking about Nazirah, she is now a exclusive staff in Tom and stephanie outlet. Congrats Girl whom i call bro sometimes. She is really different and how i wish she lives next door to me…than boring afternoon can go cycling or put our fave movies and critic them all hour long hahaha. She made delicious prawn curry i suppose since i never taste them..Her last dish that i tried was hokkien me look alike and it was wow..but i was shy lah to ask for second plate later Haziq knock my head hahahhaa
Gonna go to Orchard this weekend to get all those decos my customers wanted for their wedding…hmmm Art fren and Spotlight here i come. Its been awhile since i last go there since i go there. Orchard not really my place to hangout..You give my Mustafa centre i will be like Hallelujah…hahah Talking about that, am gonna go tekka bazaar with family and i need to get Dil bole hadippa cd soundtrack!! Maybe some nice clothes if there is. But no more coconut drink for me…
Gonna go Alexandra this week….
Miss alot of people alot alot. Yesterday i was super hungry and i was telling tikus and thank god there are ppl ordering mcdonald and i order happy meal. A drink, burger and french fries..who dont want for only $4.50. They were laughing at my happy meal toys..hey its fond memories of beign a kid back than…
Need to start working out badly…Need to get the desire goals badly..I might be going spa this week..Perhaps if all turn out fine.
Tmrw there is an inspection in my workplace and after that i can bring movies again yahoo yahoo!!!! Hmm i have actually been single for a very long time… Since february wow… Cant wait for my hair to grow again….That malay barber ar… hahaha
Maybe fate is having its turn now..Thank you for making us all smiles…
